It is my security blanket, my safety net, my strength. Like an anchor, it holds me and binds me to one place. Restless pacing aside, I cannot move. The length of the room is the further est I can let myself go before the anticipation of its coming, and the despair at missing it, calls me back.
Eventually, over the days, I learn one simple fact. It does not come when I want it to; it comes when I least expect it. I learn to sit with serenity, and eventually to do other things in the time that I wait. I read, I work. I think, I dream. I live, it is true, because living does not stop even when one does not live that life to the fullest. I talk, I laugh, I cry. But always, amidst all chaos that surrounds me and the whirlpool that tries to pull my attention away, one corner of my mind and heart – even my soul – are keyed to that corner, that anchor.
I linger, knowing that the moment it comes, my heart will take a wild leap of joy, and I will go to receive it with more energy and enthusiasm than I have for anything else in my day … or night.
So I wait.
As time drags on, and there is no sign of it, I must admit my tolerance fades and patience grows thin. Yet I wait, patiently or impatiently, for it does not care. What does it wait for? It will humble me, and then it will come. Or will it?
I run full tilt towards it, this fixed point of my life, as my patience pays off.
The phone is ringing.
~*~*~*~
Mach said,
March 24, 2006 at 12:30 am
Your anchor touched the bed of my heart. Captured feelings beautifully
.
Dreamcatcher said,
March 24, 2006 at 12:07 pm
Incognito said,
March 24, 2006 at 12:17 pm
Anchored.
*sigh*
the Monk said,
March 24, 2006 at 4:00 pm
when did you write this?
onmyowntrip said,
March 24, 2006 at 4:30 pm
I agree when you want someone to call no one does .
The ringing of the phone is like a temple bell really it can be like a calming sound when you get those jitters .
Camphor said,
March 24, 2006 at 5:02 pm
Mach – Why, thank you.
DC – Indeed. Pine away, I’m sure.
incognito – Why the sigh?
Monk – If I remember correctly on Jan 9th or 10th. Dad wasn’t in touch in between for a couple of days,and I’d gotten a landline number so that he could… Ouch, I should’ve mentioned. I haven’t written anything new for a long long time. I remembered it now.
myowntrip – Oh, perhaps the bet bit is that wheny ou want it to call, and it does, finally…
Weary Hag said,
March 27, 2006 at 3:21 am
This is lovely. You had me drawn in the entire time … wondering about this anchor. VERY nice writing!
Thanks so much for stopping by The Outpost and leaving your footprint; that means a lot to me.
CrAsHeD said,
March 27, 2006 at 11:45 am
hey girl
beautifully wriiten again…n the phone i think it rings a lot these days!!
CrAsHeD said,
March 27, 2006 at 11:49 am
hey girl
beautifully wriiten again…n the phone i think it rings a lot these days!!
Harish Suryanarayana said,
March 27, 2006 at 11:54 am
Well written , as always . Long time Camphor . How have you been ?
Ashish Gupta said,
March 29, 2006 at 11:10 am
long time no see
The Phoenix said,
March 31, 2006 at 1:08 am
Hehe…well written!
Sounds like the beginning of a new relationship – you’ve captured that initial restlessness pretty well.
Camphor said,
April 5, 2006 at 1:51 pm
Weary Hag – Thanks! It’s a pleasure to be at the Outpost.
crashed – Thankie, girl.
And I know it does ring a lot, what to do, what to do?
harish – Yeah, it has. Life’s good, but slighta busy… Will catch up later, I hope… How’s yours going?
asshish – maybe weekend after this one I’ll be at home, therefore online. Me stuck at college.
phoenix – Yup, but sometimes even the oldest relationship holds that feeling of restlessness.
sagaro said,
April 5, 2006 at 6:53 pm
Woohoo… that was one helluva post. The poeple above, have said all that I wanted to … so guess wudnt make a fool of myself reiterating them…
Camphor said,
April 6, 2006 at 4:41 pm
Reiteration is acceptable, especially when it is praise.
sagaro said,
April 6, 2006 at 6:57 pm
Captured feelings beautifully
touched the bed of my heart
VERY nice writing!
well written!
Well written , as always.
beautifully wriiten again
The Individualist said,
April 9, 2006 at 5:38 pm
Beautifully written. No two opinions about it. Well written. And made me want to guess it fast.. and I have to admit that I did. Can understand the impatience… Can I be presumptive and say, In love, who isn’t impatient?
Ashish Gupta said,
April 13, 2006 at 6:49 pm
you didn’t came
(
and now me stuck here with exams
Have them till 27th april… not free at least till 19th.. catch ya after that!
Now what happened to the muse again?
Poornaa Venkatesan said,
April 15, 2006 at 6:35 pm
Awww!
Phone call eh? LOL
I wait for smses. Apparently my neighbour hates me getting calls. She just can’t stop staring at the balcony or crapping about it to mommy dear. So sms it is, for now -sadly.
sagaro said,
April 15, 2006 at 6:50 pm
@Poornaa:
Call ikke evlo build up na, I should go tell your arumai neighbour about the vodka matter… hehe
zydar said,
April 16, 2006 at 11:51 am
Very well written. But it makes one wonder, is it that call, or something else? A wrong number maybe. Things such as these do indeed reduce one to something almost pitiable. Even to the point of being considered dangerous by some. But then we all wait. For that call..
My hat doffs yet again to the written words.
J-O-S-H (My Bench !) said,
April 20, 2006 at 3:25 am
very well written…intresting posts… had a gr8 time reading ur posts…njoy!!
The man in the box said,
April 20, 2006 at 5:30 pm
I wonder how it applies to the mobile phone scenario where the wait is interrupted by an annoying ringtone of an even more annoying song.
Thought Warp said,
April 22, 2006 at 6:45 pm
i can empathise with this piece (peace) totally!
sagaro said,
May 4, 2006 at 12:02 am
Is the phone still ringing?
Ashish Gupta said,
May 5, 2006 at 8:37 pm
:-/
Incognito said,
May 22, 2006 at 5:57 pm
I dreamt abt u yesterday. Now dont aske me how. I just did. I knew u were camphor. Sitting right behind me in some random classroom.. in bombay..
Quite wierd..
Are u.. say abt.. 5′2/3 or something?
MTT Publishing said,
May 24, 2006 at 8:03 am
I hope your patience was rewarded. Here’s hoping things are going well for you. I’m moving to Phoenix at the end of the month. Hopefully I’ll hear from you soon.
JP
Shankar said,
June 7, 2006 at 9:55 pm
went through some of your latest posts……great blog….when will you resume posting again?
Ashish Gupta said,
June 13, 2006 at 9:44 am
I give up
Incognito said,
June 16, 2006 at 6:55 pm
Thou hast been tagged by moi! See my blog for more details
sagaro said,
June 18, 2006 at 3:09 pm
Spam:
There is a bloggers meet on 24th at 3:00 pm at Ascendas. Be there da. And if possible let the rest of ur blogging friends know about it. And even if you cant find time in your busy schedule please do post about it